Dear my blog's readers,
First of all, thank you for you guys support in visiting my blog frequently, especially those who pays the visit almost everyday like Alien and MT, pom, sword and some folks in KL.
I'm sorry and sad to announce that I will stop from writting blogs from today onwards for some time. After witnessing some incidents that happened among my friends (especially the incident happened end of last year in Acad-S), I think I should keep my personal things and issues more private and confidential. This is for the reason in respecting other parties especially a very particular one and also not to let so many people keep on guessing on what's happening to the blogger-KT, nowadays.
There are a few reasons why I want to stop writting.
First, I've been very upset ever since this new year, or I should say, since end of last year. No matter it is about an incident or personal, seriously, I am not grateful of what has happened throughout the second half of the year 2007 after the first incident happened where I have to cry a lot for someone and something bad, in which I am totally out of control of myself. I can't find any good or happy source and great inspiration to write anymore to contribute to the blog, which initially, my objective is to bring happiness to my dear blog readers. Once again, to all readers, I'm sorry that I bring sadness more than happiness throughout my blog.
Next, I wish to pull myself together this year by choosing a way to disappear from other people's life cycle. Once again, I want to stress here, I am not avoiding. I just want to force myself to accept things and reality that people has given and done to me. Seriously and honestly, even though I am not happy with all these circumstances, I will just live with it. I am willing to live on an a life with less joy if at then end, what had happened can make other people feel more comfortable and greatful, and most importantly, that person, and particular someone, can be more happiness than myself.
Third, for the sake of others' happiness, I will keep all my problems and tears to my prayers every morning as I believe my prayers will be answered if I keep on my faith on what is right, in addition, I will pray for the happiness of my surroundings.
I won't voice out anymore my unhappiness, but only a smile. Even I'm very depress (like right now), I will just smile and keep writing on my personal journal. I know I have to do this alone, so, please let me do so. I promise I won't cry, and stand up like how I should stand up.
Many friends might ask or some even will blame me for being so pessimistic by keeping all the problems to my ownself or viewing or thinking of an issues too much. I am not. Frankly speaking, pouring out my problem to others won't help much as I'm not an important person to anyone (exclude family members please). Sometimes, I need attention, an attention where I can feel that I'm cherished the way I've cherished others. It is rather helpless and depress when there is a hope and someone will just smack it into broken glass. Seriously, for one friendship I have had right now, it's broken. Deep inside one's heart, it's already a broken glass, which no matter how you gonna glue it, it's broken. I still remember one had said to me which hurts me deeply, "Thing has happened and we cannot back to square one." In which, made me sobbed insanely for 2 nights continuously. It does not matter on whose fault in causing the incident happen that breaks the heart and sadden a person, what matter is, the process and incidents that causing this to be happened, in which problems can be mend and no one is initiated the move to amend it. But, it seems like everything is going to be too late now. Hence, I just want to honestly revealed that, I'm pratically and terribly upset on this matter for months, end up, it ruins my mood every single day until today. As the Chinese proverbs mentioned, the cruelty is always in reality. I agree with that. So, now, I'm borned cruel to be kind once again. Perhaps, this is the last thing I want to reveal in my blog, rather than keep cursing to myself in my MSN.
Last but not least, I would like to thank some of my friends: JackJack, Violet, Mengel, Pom, Sword, MT, BBSweetie, Alien, Ewin (especially to you Ewin), for accompanying me along these three months. Not to forget to Kexin, I will always miss you. For you guys' encouragement and lending out your ears, listen to me crying on the phone/SMS/MSN, I really appreciate them.
Wish all of my blog readers happiness always, stay cool and stay healthy.
So long everyone and till then.
With love and happiness,
K.T.Wong
K.T.Wong
